stingrays

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

magic and miracles Current mood:gliding like a sting ray i´m still in mexico. i went scuba diving today. i´ve never done it but thought that life is so short, why not. it´s another world under there. there is so much danger, yet everything is bright and colorful and wonderful and tranquil. i watched two sting rays glide. everything in it´s place. everything simple. honest. true. how did life above the water get so crazy. dramatic. caught up. when you can just melt in the sun. feel the breeze like a blanket. be quiet. quiet. quiet. simple. it´s a big world out there. a harsh one if you let it be. why mask our hearts. why protect them. our hearts are stronger than we give them credit for. the simple truth is we have to love. despite the mess ups. despite the demons. despite all of it. the simple truth is that spark of love is there. it has always been there. we´ve always known it. felt it. tried to ignore it. tried to extinguish it. tried to flee. but you can´t run away from your heart. not without losing the light in life. the joy. the wonder. the magic. the miracles. none of it makes sense. logically nothing should work. nothing should fit. it´s so complicated and crazy. but breath. just breath. those things will work how they shall. but give it a chance. a beginning. don´t try to write the middle or end. let the words flow the story go. and will we get hurt again and want to rip our hearts out. quite possibly. but that story is not yet written. let's go pet the sting rays. they won´t sting. everything beautiful has a stinger. but those are rarely used. so let´s travel across mexico on the bus and stop at all the towns. teach me spanish or italian or whatever languages are out there. teach me how to make flan. let´s bundle up and trek through the snow so i can show you my home town. and let´s drink hot chocolate while curled up by the fireplace. tell me your dreams. and i´ll tell you mine. and let´s be amazed how they become one. oh, mexico is good for the heart. good for the soul. i´m rested. i´m quiet. i can´t wait to come home and start life anew.. relaxed. refreshed. brilliantly.