Too long so long

The time was too long
The separation too far
I needed a definite
An answer you could not give.
Had I waited longer
when the answer was not forced
would it have been any different?
Or did I know the answer all along?
Waiting would have only prolonged the inevitable
maximized the hurt.
Or would the answer have been different?
Happy
Good
Love
I was too afraid to wait.
Frivolous questions
because I will never know.
And it is too late to go back
Impossible to move forward
together
So we remain separated
Time too long now forever
Separation too far now infinite
Memories and long ago dreams hold your place
But I miss you
Miss you with trick playing 'what could have beens'
Miss you with a 'slightly' broken heart
Wondering
If I waited, would you have completely crushed it?
Or been the one to make it whole and unbroken?
I miss you.
But this unknowing is worse.
So I try to accept.
That's all that I can do.
Hold on
to just me.
This just is.
It just is.
This is just the way it is meant to be.